Welcome And Safety Notes

SPEAKER_06 0:49

Hello everybody. Welcome to our October monthly community conversations with Project Human. I am going to be your host tonight. And well, it's Adela. I'm back. Jen is really, really good at this, but she is joining us on as a guest tonight. And uh so, Jen, I'm not gonna do you any good justice in the way you do that. So anyway, my name is Adela Hittel. I am the founder and owner of Project Human. Think a new way to think about mental and emotional health. These monthly conversations are a space where community comes together to explore real topics that impact our mental health and emotional health and really our overall well-being. Not in a clinical way, but in a real human way that applies to real life. And tonight we're gonna be talking about the experience of our runway to resilience, the before, the after, the what the potential might hold. And we're really, really, really, really excited. Let me just make sure that I'm doing this pop right here. Perfect. Okay. And back to my, I lost my little thing. You guys, I have notes. I'm doing really good. Our disclaimers for tonight are we're not medical professionals. If you're in a crisis, reach out to your local mental health resource or Dow 911 for in or for immediate assistance for national suicide prevention uh support dial 988. We are recording and we're live streaming. So thank you for those of you who are joining us live on tonight's event. Uh, subscribe to our YouTube channel, you guys, too, while I'm at it. If you do not wish to be on video, please take a moment to be turned to turn off your cameras. We'll be using tonight's conversations to promote and raise awareness about the organization and our mission. By participating in our Zoom meetings, you give us permission to use any and all audio video content for promotional and marketing purposes. Thank you guys so much. For those of you who are just joining us, a little bit about Project Human and what we do. We are a human-first nonprofit organization focused on bridging gaps in mental and emotional health through communication, education, creative expression, and community connection. We inform, advocate, and educate. Our work creates intentional access points for humans to pause, reflect, learn, and connect with support in a way that feels human, approachable, and grounded in real life. Through our monthly community conversations, quarterly mental health days, and the Artist Within Podcast, as well as our creative initiatives, we bring lived experience, resources, education, and honest dialogue into the community. Our impact begins with conversation and it grows through connection, awareness, reflection, and finally action, the most important one. At the heart of Think is human first ecosystem that's built around access, prevention, support, and creativity, and again, community care. Our goal is to remind every human being that they are worth the effort of healing, resilience, change that can begin within with one honest moment, connection, and conversation. Now that that part is done, how did I do, Jen? I need a little kudos because that was a lot of reading that I had to pause.

SPEAKER_02 3:32

I think it's important that everyone know that we we state these backgrounds about who Project Human is in case we have new joiners. Um, as we do recordings, folks can do the skip ahead 10 seconds if they're familiar with hearing about Project Human. But for those of us who might be new, we welcome you. We're so glad to have you here and remind you that this is a conversation between real people. We are individuals in your peer group wanting to bring you into the community, wanting to share our humanity with you, our stories with you, our being with you and grow with you. So thank you for being here. Take it away, Adela.

SPEAKER_06 4:12

See, you know, you just so you're so good at that. I'm so good at the other stuff, but you're so good

The Long Road To Resilience

SPEAKER_06 4:17

at this. So, first of all, I want to start off number one, just from my perspective on the runway to resilience and what is um going on and kind of where I'm at, just off the bat to everyone who's participated, our donors, our models, our our um back support volunteer, every single human from the beginning to end. As I mentioned in my email, you guys, for the first time in my life, after I sat down and reflected on Sunday for a minute and really thought about from when I started this 10 years ago and going on now, to having this moment of I really want to create something that brings it a community together. I started a fashion show when I started Project Human, literally 2017. I was like, I want to do this with a fashion show, and I wore my own piece, and it was a red dress that I painted, a wedding dress that was like a volcano erupting, and just this idea of explosion, like exploding into something new. I had no idea what I was doing. I had no thought or concept of what this would turn into or how it would be. I just knew there was something in me that was like, I gotta get it out. I have to get it out. And over these last 10 years, I was able to do that through the projects, through uh through our creative initiatives that we mentioned, our rebirth project, where I shave my head. And I didn't know how fashion would play in after that, but it really did because I had to think and plan for that. And we had to think of the concepts and the fashion and how it would look and where it would look. And even though we didn't get to complete that portion, right, that I had to think about, it's I still had to think about it. And I started falling in love with this idea of creating moment to moment, fabric to fabric, and just this concept that I could restructure how I was redoing my life. Again, fiber, fiber, fiber, fiber, fiber, you know, moment stitch by stitch. And in 20, I want to say 2019, I did my first fashion show at Manifest Distilling. And it was for another event, and it was for her song, and we were raising awareness for human trafficking. And it was not about the pieces, it was the idea of coming together around this mission that women were in a position where they were objectified, used, abused, and put into places that they should never be in. And we're here to create a moment that raises awareness of that. So I wanted those pieces to reflect that too. I wanted to reflect this idea that our models weren't having any makeup on. They were disheveled in all the, but they were wearing beautiful pieces because you could never know what's underneath a beautiful piece, right? And if you were to actually look at the human and past all of that, you would see what was underneath the beautiful piece. And that night, I remember feeling after we did it, after all of that, what we got the response of, I needed this expression because I allowed my models too to walk the runway and the way they felt to be seen and heard and what they wanted to represent. I didn't realize that I was literally walking through my own process of rebuilding resilience through that of every fashion show, because it really meant I had to put on together an idea and all the fail, all the literally falls. I never call them failures anymore, but falls. All the falls, all the falls that none of them worked out, that I couldn't get it done, that couldn't fit it, that we couldn't, none of that did, none of that mattered when it was done and walked away. And what we made that little room of a hundred people feel from models, production to manifest to um, you know, just everyone involved. And when I walked away from that, I sat there thinking, I've never, you know, I'm never gonna feel loved. I'm never gonna feel that room feel like that for me, even though it was, but I wasn't in my right headspace mentally, emotionally. I was so far gone, still in my own dissociation of my own complexity of my own PTSD that I couldn't recognize what humans were doing and what they were doing around me and how they were there for me. And so I remember thinking back on it. I wish I could have enjoyed the moment more. I wish I could have enjoyed the process and all of that. And fast forward now to 2026 and 2025. I'm like, I have this idea, I'm gonna do a fashion runway show and I wanna close our documentary out, and I want it to be literally a process of finding joy through all of the falls and learning how to fall in love with the fall. Learning literally how to fall in love with the fall. And this process was even more of that because I shot so high without a parachute and I was like, let me shoot so high, and then was landing in places and places that if I was not in a better state of existence, I would not have recognized the community that came together and how literally loved I felt in that room from everybody, from every single new human that showed up at the last second, at the last minute of filling a spot. Uh, you know, models. Again, things happen, so many things that happen in the back end that we were like, oh my gosh, or or oh, this might not work. But there wasn't panic, right? There wasn't anxiety. There wasn't so much stress that I used to have or we would have prior to shows. And that only showed me how much I've grown as a human being, how much I've grown as a leader, that I was able to come up and say, you know what, I don't want that anymore. Like I gave you guys a shot, let's do this, let's do this, let's do this, let's move on, let's move on, let's move on. It doesn't matter, let's move on. Let's just move on because we had to move on. And again, going back to what I've reflected upon over all of that as I sat there on Sunday, I was like, I am not even exhausted. And that was the first time I felt how good energy shift, no matter what you're doing and building, can be to not drain you, to not pull you, no matter what you work, you had to do prior to that. Like, no matter the sleepless nights and and the and the bloody little fingertips and the panic of what I could or could not be able to afford to do or where we would be at. The none of that was even in that Sunday of me. I'm like, I'm gonna, because I remember I tell you guys October 25th, that's my day off. I'm sleeping, never talked. No, I got up and I was still fully energized. And the idea that we could be able to come together complete from beginning to end something and leave a space. I remember when everyone walked out at that night after you left Alicia and everyone else left because I had to lock up. And the silence of that, it brought so much peace and joy because we started with the silence of an idea. And then there was a whole process to then going back to the silence of idea. Then that got me to a question: what next? Resilience isn't just about one thing or doing something and completing and then being like, oh, now that's it's about what next too. It's about are you willing to then try to show up for another project, another thing, and fall through it all again. And then for this end result of that moment of silence and peace to know, like, wow, you did it, we did it. And as a community, we came together and we're able to provide a reprieve for humans that we didn't even know the level that they needed for a moment of the way we pampered him and everything. And so for me, that whole experience was just I truly at the end of that night, when I finally got to be alone, and I know some of you who are like, Oh, when I'm alone, I'm alone. Like, no, my aloneless was so full of joy and so full of love, there was no alone. Yes, you know, my physical body and that empty space was there and all that, but like the love, the laughter, the joy, the commute, like it really truly was like I now when I'm in my space of like, oh no, I got my alone time. I go back to the statement that I said in my deathbed, in my space, when I'm alone, I never want to be alone when I'm full in a room full of people, never be alone in my mind and heart. And so, like to not to actually feel that now, to to experience that before and it's just the most beautiful feeling and exhilarating feeling that I hope I get to share for like the rest of my life with everyone. So that's how I felt about resilience, and that's how I feel about the process. So um, I will allow either Alicia, Yolanda, or anyone else to pop on from where they were at, and then uh we can go back to the back to the back end. But just first of all, let's say hi to everybody um that is on the call right now, too. So, Alicia, Angie, Jennifer, Yolanda, thank you for joining us. Thank you for the rest of everybody that's joined us um so far, that are listening, that have subscribed, that have everything else and followed us through all the way to here. You have no idea how much that means just to me to be here after all of that, but how much it means also to the humans that participated and will participate in what we're doing too. So uh who wants to take it away for a second? Um, what is your initial thought process and right off the bat?

When The Falls Build Community

SPEAKER_01 12:48

Um, I think oh so I one of the things that I thought was so beautiful was um I thought, you know, I I went to art school, I've done presentations, I've done, you know, events, I've done, you know, like artistic things and shows and everything. And whenever I've been at the shows, it's always um it's always about like the end result, right? It's like, oh, like this, you know, theater event went great because we didn't miss any lines or whatever. But what I thought was great about this show was um the community that was like built, you know, beforehand and hopefully will continue afterwards. And like I know there was like definitely some of moments of myself, and like I know there was some moments like with other people, and I hope that um you know that those people will feel comfortable enough to like reach out and and know that like we're there for each other. Um, you know, there was definitely the wind was not our our friend that day. Um, you know, Adela had this beautiful um, you know, outside entranceway um created, and you know, there was like so that that's just an example, right? Of like one of the things that happened, and everybody just coming together and like like Adela said, we finally just had to be like, nope, it's not gonna work today. And like it normally I feel like would have like wrecked everybody, especially all the people that you know went into the creation beforehand, and um, you know, even even coming up to this day, the fact that like we had another event space and it it you know, this one ended up being the better one, but you know, a lot of things ended up having to change because of that. So I think really to make a long story short, it was just that the fact that like all of these, like like Adele said, all of these like falls ended up making the community stronger. And I think for me, and most of the people wouldn't even know about them, right? So, like my mom came as like um a guest and she didn't know about all the the the the beforehand and you know the durings or whatever. So um I hope that everyone can understand that like that's really the goal of of think is to be a community and to be there for each other when you know we can't or somebody else can't, or sometimes you just you know, and I think I don't know. I think it was it was different because of that, because everybody was there for like the right reasons.

SPEAKER_06 15:35

So yeah, I think I wouldn't pop up really quick. You pointed something out that like literally it could have wrecked the amount of changes we had to make the day of, it could have wrecked any one of our days, and none of it happened. We just flowed with the flow, and then the guests hopefully we have some of our guests that are joining on too now, too. And so, like, hopefully, the guests had such an awesome time and the experience was curated for that environment. Like, we also didn't want to keep everybody too laid out, so like the program kept moving and things happened and so all of that, but like the idea that we were able to have a community of like every single being in the back end to the front end to the guests coming together, like at every level, like every level to participate, to say hello, to to to show up, to just all of that was literally what it was about to feel that love and that joy of such hard work in life. Like life is so hard for us all because we make it difficult. Not not us and not us necessarily in that way, but humans do. And so the fact that we were able to create a space, place, and a moment where it felt like it wasn't, even though it might have been for us, it wasn't for them. I think that was was a great part of what an example of a community can do when we come together. Um, Miss Christina, thank you coming and joining in. Um, Miss Angie, I actually want to uh hear from you because you're one of our models. And then I want to hear from um Miss Christina because she popped on too, because she was our guest. And then Yolanda, you'll have to pop on and say hi if you'd like to. Um, I know you've been uh having a busy day today, too. So um, and then Jen, interject at any point because we're gonna be talking in between and back end and back end. Um, but let let me actually ask a question right now since uh we kind of set our piece on

A Model Shares What Care Felt Like

SPEAKER_06 17:16

that. Um, Miss Angie, your overall thought and experience of that, uh of just the night. And then I'd like to ask you the follow-up question of what you thought our process leading up to the night was like.

SPEAKER_00 17:31

So I had already said in the chat that it was magical. Um, I'm just grateful for the opportunity. It was, it felt really, really good to be loved on. Um, I was not expecting that. So that was a great surprise, a welcomed surprise. Um, and it just made me feel really, really good. I mean, you know, somebody that just goes and gives and gives and gives and always pouring out, it felt good to be poured into because that's not that doesn't happen a lot. For me, um, I am a giver, um, a giver of my time, my talents, you know, you name it. And I always show up, no matter what it is that I am going through or what I'm experiencing, um, whether I'm in pain or not in pain, I always show up for other people. So it felt really, really nice to have people show up for me. So I thank you so very much, Adela. I thank Yolanda and everybody that had a hand in that day because it was truly magical.

SPEAKER_06 18:39

Yes. Um, Jennifer said, even healers need healing, even givers need giving too. Yes, yes. Um I know buddies. We have doubt we have uh commotion going on out there. Um, what was other question? What was your experience leading up to the day? Because I know you weren't expecting a few things, but as far as communication or the process, um the process was great.

SPEAKER_00 19:00

Um, the communication was great. I just had a lot going on, so I wasn't as involved as I should have been. Um, but I mean, the the notifications, the um details of you know what you need, this sort of thing, um, leading up to the even the change of the venue. It's the power of the pivot. And I think you managed it, you and your team managed it well. And so kudos to you guys.

SPEAKER_06 19:28

Thank you so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you. And we're gonna come back, PDFs. Yes, no, the PDFs, man. We did it. We're gonna come back for some more extra personal. Um, I want to ask a few more questions on that too. Um, but Miss Christina, you popped on too.

A Guest’s View Of The Night

SPEAKER_06 19:43

Thank you so much for joining. If you're willing to say hello and hello, yes and what your experience was from your perspective as a guest.

SPEAKER_04 19:52

Here I am. Sorry. Um, I had a great time. I thought it was a wonderful production. And you know, I was very grateful to have been invited to come and support. Um and I'm not sure if that was Yelmanda that was just speaking, but you absolutely were stunning out there. Um, who was just on. And um Miss Angie. Miss Angie, okay. That's why I was like, I'm not sure who was just speaking, but I definitely think that what you're doing, and even though it's and it's not just for children, like it's for everybody. And I I learned a little bit more about the story and how this all came about. Um, and I'm just grateful to learn and be a part of it and to continue to learn more for sure. So it was a great, it was a great time. I mean, everybody, even like you said, things didn't go as planned, but it still went very well.

SPEAKER_06 20:52

I mean, apparently when Adela doesn't when Adela doesn't come to the call stage where she's called to a couple of times too, don't worry, I heard. I'll tell you guys about that moment in a second so y'all can laugh about what happened behind the scenes in that moment because that clip is coming out. That was a fun oh, it was hilarious. So, yes, no, I heard about that. Don't worry, I heard about that. That was it was all on me. Um, but yes, again, like you guys said, you know, you that those things happen, but but you guys, I'm glad that it was, I'm glad that you enjoyed it. And was the food good?

SPEAKER_04 21:28

I hope I only ate the pasta, um, but I definitely got good feedback from him eating my son, and my son doesn't eat a lot, so he liked it.

SPEAKER_06 21:37

Yes, good.

SPEAKER_04 21:38

You went back for seconds, actually.

SPEAKER_06 21:40

Okay, good, good.

SPEAKER_04 21:41

I'm good, absolutely.

SPEAKER_06 21:42

Good, good, good. Jen said that she heard from her guests too that it was quite yummy. Good, because we went and we we took, so we're getting to Yolanda right now because we took boss lady. So I had a little bit of issue in catering you guys, okay? It was back and forth for months and months and months, and we've been working on months and months, and we were gonna have a food again. God works a mistake. Mysterious ways and the way he works and puts us in the way we're at supposed to be. So as long as we know how to show up, we show up and we it's delivered. And so we were working on food trucks, we're working on things, and it just was not pinning out for us. And like maybe a week before we walk in, I do a couple more things, and this place pops up to on our place, Hovan, Meditarian Gourmet. I'm like, Yolanda, you're coming in this week. You're the chef. I need you to go in. We're gonna try it out. Brought her in, she sat down, she ate, she goes, I love it. I said, That's it, that's the catering. That's how that catering happened. Um, because boss lady had no objections to that, which introduction introducing Boss Lady of the day, who was our makeup artist lead and our care lead for our um, we have to thank Joy uh Beauty Box with Trina Washington for opening up her salon to us and to our ladies to be able to do this. So huge shout out to her and Yolanda take it away about that.

Behind The Scenes Beauty Rituals

SPEAKER_03 22:54

Yeah, for sure. Um hi, I'm Yolanda. Um, I'm not doing video today because honestly, I just don't want to. Sorry. Um, I'm not prepared to, let's just put it that way. Um, and then the experience as far as being at Joy Box was amazing. Um the owner's amazing. She's so kind, she's so sweet. Anything that we might have needed, she preemptively sh you know she had that preemptive strike, you know, she's already doing it, which was fantastic for us. Um, and we were also trying to very much keep the place clean, keep things tidy, keep things organized, sanitized, all that. Um but it was really great with the with the models and the students. So we had um a local community college come out at CJ, and um they brought uh quite a bit of their cosmetology students, so they got to have an experience not only to potentially walk through a consultation, but um then do the hair and makeup of our models who are their guests. Um there were a lot of teachable moments in that about uh different hair types, um different curl patterns, different um ways to straighten hair, just all sorts of things, and same thing with the makeup. Some stuff we had to improvise um because some some people maybe didn't have any, or maybe some people had some but they weren't the right colors, or whatever. So we had to improvise on um how to make what you have work, and so I showed them a lot of tips and tricks um with with different things to make like eyeshadow into a brow gel or how to make you know um concealer into more of a wearable foundation versus just like concealer or how to you know make um eyeliner out of different things, and there's a lot of stuff like that, like we really having to work with what we have and and and give them good tips and tricks on how to do things that they might not normally be able to, and as well as work with some of our models in teaching them how to blend their makeup uh for their skin types, because I think something we do in this industry, especially like uh no shade to like you know, Ultas or Sephores or anything like that, but uh people might try to match their overall skin tone, but when you have people with different skin levels, skin tones, the way you apply makeup's different, right? So our color wheel thing coming from a cosmetology background really helps, and that also goes into makeup. So we really have to um show them how to blend that out because one part of their skin might be olive and another might have a blue tone to it, and there's so much anyway. So we were teaching them that type of stuff. We were also going beyond and talking to the instructors, giving them ideas about maybe what their students could be doing or couldn't be doing, um, having really cool conversations just on a personal level with everybody.

SPEAKER_05 26:24

Don't forget the facials, don't forget the facials. Yeah, we did the facials for a model.

SPEAKER_03 26:29

We we did, we did our facials, we did some things um for sure. So we had a few different um rituals of beauty that we did. Um, we taught them how to give a proper hand massage and why we do it the way that we do it. Um, we did a hot towel with face masks. A couple of the girls could not do it because it did affect them. They they they have more sensitive skin. Um, so we just have to get another hot towel and and take care of them. Um no breakouts, no nothing, because the the the message of the day was um natural, you know, like well, pain is not beauty. Okay, if there is pain, that's it. That is not okay, okay. So make up our hair. Um if there's any sort of pain, any sort of irritation, anything, it's 100% stop, breaks, everything. Um, and so we didn't really play that game, you know. Um we try to stay very hypoallergenic, but still, some people, you know, myself included, I'm very peculiar with my my skincare. It it does what it wants, so I understand. Um, and then we did have breakfast. We had um bagels and Danishes and fruit, and um funny enough, we we had coffee uh and we wanted juice, but we forgot juice, so we ended up getting caprices, and then also we forgot the cream cheese.

SPEAKER_06 27:55

Well, we didn't forget the cream cheese, Panera didn't.

SPEAKER_03 27:56

We didn't forget the cream cheese, Panera did. We had to do it too. So we had Capri Suns. Yeah, and then we got juice, but yes, yeah, so that was fun.

SPEAKER_01 28:05

Um I wondered why you guys had Capri Suns. That's why because we're gonna have the Capri sons. One of the volunteers came up and was like, Can we have these? And I was like, I don't know who those are. No, yeah, absolutely, absolutely.

SPEAKER_06 28:17

We were like, bring them back, bring them back because we need we are because I was like, Yes, Capri Suns, 100%.

SPEAKER_03 28:23

And then we were way up early, like so. We got finished early. We and and that was giving everyone time, time to mingle, time to talk, time to eat, time to play in hair, time to play with makeup. And we still got there a few hours early.

SPEAKER_06 28:39

Listen, this is my great, like my I'm again, all things considered, all things considered, my greatest fall was that we were early. We were early to everything. We were early and everything. We were early to everything. Everything is early, and I didn't account for early. I didn't account for early. I only accounted for late. I was like, we're always late to everything. Account for late, account for late. Did not account for early.

SPEAKER_03 28:58

Well, then we had to pause. She said Angie had time.

SPEAKER_05 29:00

Angie had time to go get her lashes done. That's how early we were. That's how early we were. She had time to go get her lashes done. Yes.

SPEAKER_04 29:11

That's very important.

SPEAKER_05 29:12

Yes, yes. So, like, again, if that's the downfall of the downfall is that we were really.

SPEAKER_03 29:17

Well, you know, when everybody gets in bed early, like Angie went, she got her eyelashes done, right? She comes in, she's sitting down as the makeup art, as one of the, you know, as a makeup artist. I walk in, I'm like, Did you get your makeup done already? And she looks at me, she's like, No. And I was like, You're ridiculous. Like, you just need to go put on clothes. You don't even need makeup. Like, this is crazy. I mean, obviously, we did a little bit of makeup on her and stuff, but she's so naturally beautiful. It's ridiculous. Yes. Ridiculous, this woman. Beautiful skin. She's just a beautiful person. And so she it was just so funny. I walked by, I was just like, girl, why are you here? Why we don't need to do just you just gonna put clothes on. Yes. Just go put the clothes on. Yes.

SPEAKER_06 30:01

Yes. But we did. So that was so the idea of the idea of our this.

Delegation, Trust, And The PDF

SPEAKER_06 30:06

So this is one way of our creative project initiatives, right? Our CPIs, what we do. So we either do a music video, or we do a film, or we do a documentary, or we do an event and a show this big that involves so many parts, right? We want to involve our community to come together in the back end of learning the process, learning how to get into fittings, what it requires, what it means. Uh, we actually potentially might have an opportunity for some of our models that somebody reached out because of what we just did to give them an opportunity for maybe experiencing that somewhere else that they may not have had otherwise, right? So the idea was to be able to come together and create opportunity for those who would never potentially have an opportunity, would think to have it, would even want to consider it, or to consider the care that they would require to be able to achieve some of the things that they might want to do, um, and the resources and what to do and think about on their feet and when things don't work out, how to move forward, like all of that encompassing to allow our participants to also, who are again models and all that, um, to feel that, to know that, to be transparent about that, because that could then go potentially to like, what do I want to do with my life? Well, you know what? I was part of this project and it took this and it took this, and this fell, and this fell, and this fell. But the end it was done, and it and it was done. So I could still do it too. It's just a matter of figuring out where I'm gonna fall or pick up and what I need to do. Let me ask for help, let me reach out to somebody, you know. We made so many amazing, great connections, and that was the idea of it. Um, but primarily the fact that we were able to get a venue to provide our models who so many humans and our students, you know, from FSC J. Thank you, Felicia Wallace, who genuinely are the educator and all of the other educators and students that came out. There were so many to come out and want to learn, to want to see the human side of the cosmetology, and then potentially, again, employment. Joy Beauty Box is a salon. She is the owner. Trina does have the capacity to hire and fire. And so it the ability for somebody to come in and say, hey, you know what? I got to go participate, I got to do this, I got to do this, and I potentially have employment. Like that is the whole idea of our creative project initiatives that if they're long, long-term programs or or works over six to eight weeks, this was months worth of work for us, but with a small team. But our six to eight week, 12-week program of what we do with a project like this, the ability for humans to walk out at the end of it, learn, feel refreshed, feel like they needed it, um, and have the capacity to believe in themselves a little bit more, create a community, that's what they've all been about. And this event also showcased all of those other projects with it. And you're not, Yolanda will vouch to this. Miss Angie has been around for a while too. But all those other projects we've done show the resilience and the constant showing up, showing up, showing up to not perfect, because we'll never perfect anything, but to kind of perfect a process of a human first centered process and community-built process so that that way we can take this next step for next year and be like, no, we plug and play. No, we can plug and play, plug and play. Who is and who is that? Because we know it's possible, it's been done. Um, and the fact that we were able to execute, and this was also my training, my lesson, or whatever it is that we want to work on. If there's something that we all want to work on, I always have something. And mine was control and trust, right? I had to give up full control over something that I care about deeply, which is hair makeup design. Like I am a literally 20-year cosmetologist, licensed, certified, been all the stuff, fashion design. Like, I've got my own thing and I like my thing. So to be able to say, hey guys, I have this idea, walk through and be like up, down, left, right, this, that, move it around, and then allow that full creative control to the team without worry, and then be on the other side and being like, all right, let's try to make this arch happen because well, we're gonna try to make an arch happen because and the idea that everybody wanted to make my arch happen, like that just blows my mind. And so to be able to split myself and trust my team, and that shows the constant showing up over the years that ones do, the constant building of that trust and relationship of I've got your back, I've got your back, even though I may not know everything or I may not understand it, Adela, or your PDF might be 9,900 pages, but thank you, because we'll figure it out. Um, but it does come in that again, you build that trust. And so for me to be able to walk away and not stress, not feel like really fully trusted, not only is that my faith in God that has grown really strong, but also my faith in the humans around me and the trust that I have in the team that leads the things that we need to do, which then gives me the hope for what we're about to do in the next two, three years, which is phenomenal. So when we talk about what did we learn and what did we gain, this was my test too. Do I, you know, how do I allow and delegate that? Because this has been my baby for 10 years and I've had to do all the stuff and do all that. How do I delegate it? How do I give it away and give that? And again, the team showed up and showed out that I have nothing but like absolute praise. And if there's any falls or anything that went wrong, it was all on my PDF, literally, because y'all followed it. Like, that's just what it was. It was my PDF.

SPEAKER_03 35:01

Your PDFs used to give me anxiety, right? Like your PDFs were so much back in the day. Like I was so overwhelmed by them, and now they're my safety blanket. Like now, your PDFs, like I carried your PDF around with me all day, like it was a gold. Like it was holy grail, no, I gotta stay on track, I gotta keep on time, I gotta do whatever. And every time I was like, oh, nope, time's not going well. I look back, I'm like, wait a second, I'm crazy early. I'm fine. You guys have more time. Go ahead. So when I say like the PDF thing, at first it was overwhelming. Um, and that's years and years ago. And now today it is it is a safety blanket. It's it's such it's it's refreshing because it's like even when we're in doubt, like the PDF never is.

SPEAKER_06 35:49

The PDF is and again, it could be wrong by the time we get done, but at least it's something that we all agreed on, and we all are like, okay, well, let's go back to that. And if that doesn't work, where did we all mess up or where did it not? Where but we have a grounding force on that. Yeah, like, yeah, absolutely. Um, uh, Jennifer, if you're able to want to pop on, you'd like to say anything by all means. I'd love to hear from you because we haven't heard anything from you yet. I'd love to hear. So, really quick, guys. Jen has been, we gotta give a huge shout out to Jen. Number one, Jen has been our MCC master and our MCC host and our MC MCC for the whole year. Okay, this is the first time I'm taking over, and she's done a way better job than I have. So, kudos and congratulations because all of that is on you. You're just phenomenal. Number two, she also contributed so much in getting so many of our silent auction items and our um raffles and such in that, so that we were able to raise some money. We were able to do the things that we needed to do. Um, and she was also created pieces to our they were part of the show. So we were able to add pieces that she handcrafted as an artist, paper macheed, um, into the background of where our models are walking, a cocoon and a stick that she did like a tree branch out of paper mache, like which again, I have talents, but then I look at what talents and like actual patience requires. I don't have that, like at all, period, not even close. And last but not least, she donated a refurbished, the hand refurbished chair that she did herself. It was freaking phenomenal. Which, which by the way, I'm so sorry.

SPEAKER_03 37:23

Yeah, Jen, I meant to text you. I'm so sorry, I forgot. Mentally, I've been just whatever. Holy talent, okay, holy guacamole. Okay, I know the the the what you had to learn to do that just from knowing upholstery and and doing that growing up. When I saw that and she told me you did it by hand, I turned the chair over. Like immediately, I saw my knots over. And I was like, this is incredible. And then she showed me your paper mache and I almost crapped myself. I was like, Where was where is this? Where is this person? Where is she? What is it?

SPEAKER_01 38:01

I was so excited. Like there was like nothing that Jen did that much. Right. This is true.

SPEAKER_06 38:12

So, like you were with us the whole time. So, like physically, you couldn't be there this year, but next year, here's what happens though when we do this, the way we do this, right? Because now I've had reach outs of people going to Adela, are we doing this again? When are we doing this? So, like they can't do that to me because that's just like feeding a little cat, like you know, you're like, go ahead. And I'm like, Yay. So when we do it again, the way we do it, you know, it's gonna be like the date. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 38:38

We'll be like, all right, we get three free dates to pick from. Right, right, right, exactly.

SPEAKER_03 38:45

Yes, oh yeah, and dude, just noticing that you have uh the paper machine. Listen, we're gonna have art days. Okay, we're gonna have art

Paper Mache, Moss, And The Wind

SPEAKER_03 38:54

days together.

SPEAKER_02 38:54

I will, I will, um, I will add a few things. Um I had to dig into my previous experience of talking to people from a business lens to cold call and introduce myself to over 68 different vendors, um, and to get yeses from very few of them to aggressively pursue follow-up emails and phone numbers, to personally go and pick things up that were donations, to get confirmations, to have people back out after three yeses. It is a process. If you have never worked with a nonprofit, it is not easy. People do not fall in your lap. You have to go out, you have to walk the beat, you have to outreach, you have to ask, you have to introduce what it is that you are trying to achieve, what the funds that we accrue from an event like this go to, which is 100% right back into the community that we are trying to sustain. The Northeast Florida and digital community that we have through our monthly community conversations. We make this possible through volunteer hours, through funding of kind donors, through our own time and effort. And it is um, as Angie was saying, the effort of givers to keep giving to others who give, uh, to others who need, especially when your cup is empty. A group like this can come and pour into you through the desire to create this community because you are not alone, because I am not alone, and because we believe in what we're doing. And I pulled artwork out of the ether. I have not touched paper mache since kindergarten. Literally didn't know what I was getting into, panicked because in kindergarten it made me sick because they used paste, and I don't have a thing for the smell and the like lumpy texture of the paste. So I made my paper mache with lemongrass oil because I need aromatherapy. And I I used several drops of aromatherapy, I used regular flour and water and salt. Um, I shredded my newspaper, I cut my newspaper, I got very messy in my friend Steph's garage. She was a gem and helped coach me. Um, I created first the cocoon and then the tree branch. And when I got to the tree branch, it's like everything clicked for me. I knew about density, I knew about weight, I knew about breadth, I knew about support systems. And then I bought um paints and I did like 56 dry brush layers to create the appearance of a stick that most people who walked into my house were like, why do you have a stick in your living room? I'm like, go pick it up. And I literally glued on real moss and real mushroom bits and like real like fungi pieces to make it as real as possible so that the cocoon and the twig would feel very natural. Um, and I was very nervous about it because I said, you know, they've got so many amazing ideas and decor, and this is very juvenile. I don't even know if this is gonna work. So I handed it to Adela at the last minute. I'm like, look, if you don't use it, it's okay. I just created these in the name of rebirth. And she was like it was natural. There you go. And we talk about elementary. Oh my god, we'll use it.

SPEAKER_06 42:24

All we always talk about back to basics at elementary, like back to the basics and elementary things. Yes, yes, and we definitely used it because we had to we had to then make ship the whole entryway and a whole thing, like we had because the arch was not arching, okay. You know me, I give humans when they're like we can do the Sadella. I and I said I was trusting.

SPEAKER_01 42:46

The arch was just mad that it was very windy, so windy. Like the wind was so crazy.

SPEAKER_06 42:52

No, we were gonna walk through arch for you guys. You guys were gonna walk in the window.

SPEAKER_01 42:55

No, the the arch was there was a small arch, but we had like this giant arch that had been built, and it was gonna be like basically a tunnel that you like you like enter through. But the way that the wind was because it was made out of um what are the PVC pipes, and then we were gonna we had these beautiful drapes that were going on to it, but the way the wind was the drapes.

SPEAKER_06 43:18

Any other day, any other day it would have worked because it was windy this time, it was like nope.

SPEAKER_01 43:24

And then I mean at one point, at one point there was literally a chair that we were standing on, and the chair blew over. And I was like, if the chair can't even stay, then there's no.

SPEAKER_06 43:34

I saw that and I walked up, I was like, hey guys, and the guys were so look, listen, the guys were so set on making the arch happen because I was so set on having all the guests walk through and the models walk through and this like whimsical thing to walk into it again. How can we do and make it as great as we possibly can with what we have? And that was the idea. And we had almost all the resources, and it was like the chair blew over. I walked over, I was like, guys, you've got 20 minutes. If you can't figure it out, 20 minutes. Minutes, we're shutting it down. And they're like, We got it, Adela. I'm like 20 minutes and we walk by. I was like, I was like, I'm breaking all of your hearts. I understand the hard work you put in the last two hours, but this wind is just gonna kill us all. So we're just not doing that.

SPEAKER_01 44:12

Jen Jen's piece ended up being like right centerpiece of yeah, of the of the experience, like main part. So um, if you guys go back and look at the pictures, you'll see the cocoon and the the stick that were hanging from the entryway that we had like kind of had to design. So it worked out perfectly.

SPEAKER_04 44:32

I will say that's probably one of my favorite things as well is the creative design that goes into it. Um, and I loved hearing Jennifer say that she used the moss, you know, and even down to the oils that's what just being resourceful, you know, and also making it for her since she was working with it. Um, but I can absolutely relate to all of you with saying how the wind can be very challenging. Um, because I actually used to run the Mayport Waterfront Market, and I went from 25 vendors to 85 vendors, and they would show up at 6:30 in the morning. And some mornings it was just blowing everywhere, and I would have tents going different directions. So it was just me out there, and I'm like, I don't help with the setup. I was more of the logistics, I designed the logistics. Um, but when those things happen, you just have to jump in. Everybody chooses to jump in, even other vendors, you know, helping one another. So it's great, like you said, having everybody on your team and knowing that they're they're going to do the same thing as you would.

Donations, Raffles, And Last Minute Saves

SPEAKER_02 45:44

And we have to now I'm a I'm a visual person and I would love to know when or where we should go to access the photos from the event. I would love to live vicariously through the photos that were taken.

SPEAKER_06 46:00

So, what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna give drop one, drop the link that I have right here because I sent it in the email to all of our uh all of our event attendees and stuff. So you guys did get an email with the link, but I am gonna drop the link here for you guys from what um Gilded Wing Imagery has shared with me so far. So um they weren't required to share with us obviously hundreds of them, but you know, we did ask for quite a bit of them, so we'll see what else they give us. Um they have a couple, a couple, they have a little time. Obviously, we're not making them everybody like tomorrow. Of course, Adela would like it to be, but you know, again, Adela ahead of time, sometimes when they're like, uh Google Drive imagery, let me know if you guys got this. If not, what I'm gonna do is um okay, great. Um, I'll email it again to you guys in there too. But take a look at that. That's what we have right there. So you can take a look at a few of them in there. I do want to give a shout-out too, because Christina, you mentioned uh, so for our raffle prizes, too. Normally when you go to a place too, you get like, you know, I'm not saying that are like eight, they're like little prizes, and they are like they're prizes, they're prizes. However, we have to give a shout out to AR's Detailing, Elite Detailing, okay? Because he came in through last minute. Listen, this human last minute, first of all, I have to go back one more. I have to give a huge shout out to Molly McDaniel for um Mad Men Marketing. You guys don't know who she is yet? She has been an angel, my guardian angel for this event and everything I have. She came in a couple months ago into my life, and because of her and her connections and her willing to like share and meet with me every week for a conversation and like to iron things out. This is why this happened. So, like, I gotta give a huge shout out to to that human too. So, because of her, I got into contact with AR, and because of him, we got into contact with uh DJ not uh nautic, and because of that, that all came together because literally within three days' span, that came together. Um, so I want to give a huge shout out to him. He gave us to a silent auction. Uh, he also, which by the way, your mom won the silent auction. Um, I have to email them. Um, Miss Debbie won that silent auction for detailing. Um she wasn't there when we were announcing it, she had left already. But then um, but also then Miss Christina won the raffle because our raffle highest prize was a five $400 detailing service by ARZLE detailing. Part of what we wanted to do was create that experience for you too, so that when you are coming too, you're walking away with potentially a little more than what you invested in too, right? Or what you were able to do in there. Not just as you know, the silent auctions and the things. We really wanted to create that experience of that. Yes, it is a fundraiser. Yes, we need the money for what we need to do. But at the end of the day, it is about the experience of the human. Because if you feel that you were seen, loved, and like valued for what you did do and how you showed up, then potentially you will share that and you will be able to again share that value and that worth with others that will bring to us the fruits of what we need to do in our labor and our efforts. So um definitely gotta give him a shout out because man, and DJ Nautik, if you're listening, okay, I got your emails, I got your stuff. I'm just behind on my life right now. I'm catching up. I had to take out trash, okay?

SPEAKER_07 49:05

He did a great job.

SPEAKER_06 49:06

He was he did a great job.

SPEAKER_03 49:09

Awesome. Yeah, I definitely spoke to him.

SPEAKER_06 49:12

He came through, his heart is so big, so good that it's beyond like it genuinely is. We had an incident, and I yeah, we had an incident. We had a DJ signed on from July, and 10 days prior to that, he said, No, I don't want to do this, which again to each his own prerogative and every way and all that stuff. I didn't appreciate the way he came off with. So I said, Okay, good, good luck to you and have a good time. And then, because it's not human. If you're human, I understand, but I'm not we're not doing this back and forth of alpha thing on any level or not, not so good. That's it. And then I was like, Well, that's fine, we'll figure it out. We have a backup plan to a backup plan to a backup plan, okay? We had uh Alicia and O'Neal working on their playlist, Ralph was working on our playlist, Jananda said, yeah. We were all listen, we we know how to throw it. We had backups for backups, we have a backup to a backup to a backup backup, okay? So we were all pulling out. I was like, and I said, Hey, activate backups. So we were activating backups in the win midst. I'm like, I'm still not giving up on this though. Like, who do I know? Who do I know? And Molly's like, well, I know somebody. And I'm talking to AR, meet with him, and we're talking, and we just we have this vibe. He right there, right there in front of me, picks up the phone, calls, um, calls DJ Nautic, and he's like, Hey, I got this thing going on. It's literally this Saturday. Um, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And I'm like, yeah, that he goes, here, talk to her. And I was like, Oh, okay, hello. Like, he didn't plan any games. That's why I love him so much. He didn't play any games. He goes, talk to her, talk to him. He goes, Got you. Literally said, designed, delivered, showed up and participated, asked questions, was involved in the process of the creation, asking us about the music, asking us how to be in there, what's like his own. I'm like, no, the idea again of that community build, and that was three, four days before the show. So the fact again, we are so blessed by community members with hearts who are willing to show up and willing to do that.

SPEAKER_01 50:58

And aligned events. We want to give a big shout out to the case. We're getting to them, yes.

SPEAKER_06 51:02

So aligned events. So, a couple of things about aligned events, really quick, you guys. So they decorated and did our theme for all our centerpieces, and they did our backdraw back there for the pictures that you guys took with your photos. Oh, yes, we sat with them. Yep, yep. And you guys want to hear some crazy story? Listen, this is amazing. So, Deanna and Angela are amazing, amazing human beings. Any event you guys need to decorate, need to have collaborative effort on, like, y'all need to have them. They're gonna be on our vendor list and all of our stuff, like our participants on our website and things that we share. We're gonna be working with them for the rest of, unless somebody else better comes along and they really want to knock them out, then like go try. But I we like them a lot, so just so you know. So they are amazing. Here's what's the other cool card, cool part, you guys. You know how this is all like community built and like it's been a 10-year project, and Adela's been like, oh, blah, blah, blah. Why is it? So my mama was there. Why is it that Deanna, I believe, oh, forget me if I'm wrong, it might be Angela, but I think Deanna, she works with my mom, has worked with my mom as a nurse in the night shift for the last five years. So they know each other.

SPEAKER_05 52:02

So Line D Wends knows my mama, and they know each other. And you found that at the event? I found that at the because they walked up to me. They're like, That's your mom. I was like, Yo, you know I've worked with your mama for so long. Oh my god, that's so funny. Wow.

SPEAKER_06 52:20

Two degrees of separation. Yes, like how insane. And so huge shout out to them for like what they did in the world.

SPEAKER_01 52:28

They just handmade things tailored to the event. Like they were amazing.

SPEAKER_06 52:33

I showed up, I was like, here you go. And they said, we'll take the boxes. I said, have fun. And again, learning, again, delegating, learning to trust, all these things as a leader. I'm learning to do because I want to be a good leader and I want to again make the changes and actually make this sustainable for what we're doing. I know it works, we've done it. Now we want to take it bigger and better. And so to be able to do that and have them show up and everyone deliver it just so aligned events. You guys need to check them out for real. Last but not least, with so many more, the experience, the venue. Okay. Yes, yes, you guys.

The Venue Pivot That Saved Us

SPEAKER_06 53:06

We had this idea. Okay, not we, Adela had this idea. Let me put this thing on there. Let me back to bagpedal. Adela had this idea to do it at the Jesse because it's a three-story building, and we got it. It was great. We just had to pay for it, right? Like, and that's fine. If we can afford it, we can do it. And we tried, we tried, we we did our part, we did our part. It wasn't in our cards. So then the deadline came and I was seeing her panicking, going, not I hopefully you guys didn't feel the panic too much, but I no, she didn't show us that at all.

SPEAKER_01 53:32

Okay, no.

SPEAKER_06 53:33

I was in back here, like panic mode. Like, y'all should have seen it anyway. And so I'm praying, having a moment. God's like 10 days, 10 days. I was like, okay, so I asked for a 10-day extension, not knowing anything. And then I asked around, I was like, hey guys, if you know anybody or anybody, blah blah blah blah blah. Zach Phillips talks to someone who's one of our volunteers. Zach Phillips talks to someone, and I was talks to someone who calls someone else, then calls Alex. And Alex is like, yeah, absolutely. You know what? I hear what you're doing, I like what you're doing. You guys can use the space for free for the day. We were like, What? Only caveats. That's what it's all about. He said, only caveats you have to change the date. Like, okay, caveat solved. Like, no offense to any one of us. Like, we gotta do what we gotta do for the bigger thing. Yes, so we did that and we solved that, and we had to move it and we had to change it. So when we talk about September, we had it 10 days before show date or whatever we needed to do. We were like, change the venue, change the whole thing, expand it. Like, do all of that and inform your guests and inform the new teams and hope that everybody will still be willing to show up and do that. Um, that was definitely a challenge on my other end to be like, oh my god, what am I doing? Like, am I even like one capable? What am I doing? Why am I doing this? Like, the amount of times I've asked myself, why am I doing this was an insane amount of times. And so, but again, to have them show up and they delivered. And then Alex, throughout the whole process, letting us come in, letting me roam, letting me do my thing the way I do and just take over. Uh so much thank you, you guys. If you need a venue experience and it's budget friendly, like it is budget friendly. So for your for your corporate events, your even your wedding, they've had weddings there.

SPEAKER_01 55:09

They have, and they have, I mean, even though aligned events took it to the next level, they have a wonderful backdrop and everything. So even if you don't have like a big design crew, like it's already ready to go.

SPEAKER_06 55:20

So they really cultivated that. So definitely check them out on there. And again, another shout out to FSCJ North Campus because they came out, they came through the whole day, too. Um, uh, Jen had to go. Are you leaving on a Saturday? Uh I will drop off now. Jen, we love you. Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 55:36

Thank you, Jen, for everything.

SPEAKER_06 55:37

Yes, you guys, we have one more MCC next month, and Jen's gonna be back and doing the better job. So FYI, look how forward to that beautiful voice. Yay! Okay, Jen, tell Jake we said we love you, and we'll talk to you guys in a and then I see you November 19th. Yep. November 19th, the holiday one.

SPEAKER_01 55:53

Yeah, we need to change that on the site.

SPEAKER_06 55:54

Yep, absolutely. Um, so you guys, so so yeah, so we did all of that, and then who else did we have

Care Of Self Over Self-Care

SPEAKER_06 56:00

to? Um, I have my list. Hold on, let me pop up my list real quick. Miss Angie, I want to ask you a question. What was your favorite part about the event?

SPEAKER_00 56:09

Oh, it was the pre. It was the pre-events for me. I mean, I loved it all, but it was the pre-events, and then at the end I got the dance. I was hey, that was amazing.

SPEAKER_06 56:21

Yes, the pre-event. I hope that it was part of your favorite part because that's what I really wanted it to be. I needed it, I really wanted you guys to have a reprieve for a moment from your everyday life. Like, there's so much that goes on. Again, like you said, you're not poured into, you're not taken care of. So the fact that we were able to provide that, that was really because the idea isn't self-care. The idea is care of self. There's a so much deeper meaning to that and how you show up for that and how you move forward. It isn't just self-care, it is really the care of self. And that leads to the stewardship of yourself. How are you really showing up for the way you walk, you talk, you move, you, you know, you we talk when we talk about basics, we talk about going back to, you know, brushing your teeth, washing your face. Like those are things that, yes, they're basics, but how is that a care of yourself, a ceremony, a ritual, a life, a moment that you're like, I absorb it. And when someone else provides it to you and teaches you a little bit through it or has that conversation in that, um, I hope that you guys, those of you who participated or part of it, get to take that home and for your five minutes to recognize that you're worth that effort. Even if you ask your brother, sister, mother, father to be like, hey, can you do this with me for five minutes? Um, I'm not saying they'll say yes, but if you're asking for that connection and doing that, ask for those five minutes. And if nothing else, do it for yourself. Again, care of self is so much deeper than having to be self-care. And again, not nothing against self-care. It's just to me, it's a washed out version of the depth that it requires for you to show up for yourself every single day. There's just so much more to it that is, you know, than just hey, put on, put on some makeup, mascara, and walk down the runway. It is so much deeper than that um in preparation of your mind, soul, and body. So I'm glad to hear that.

SPEAKER_00 58:00

I am glad that soul care. Soul care. Soul care. That's what I don't want to do.

SPEAKER_03 58:06

I am also glad to hear that because you know, they they got to have our models, you know, they had students. Um, I tried to make it a point to stop by every student station and give them the opportunity to learn something or um teach, you know, even teach us something if we needed to. Um, and the fact that she has that um from student, you know, yes, level, and and the fact that she feels that from the human beings behind the behind it all, that you can feel that from us. Um it it makes everything worth it. Yes. That's that's all it makes it all worth it.

SPEAKER_00 58:44

Yeah, well, it's because I mean, as a mother, you know, I my daughter just graduated, she's first year in college, you know, just started a new job, going back full-time after being off for five years, you know, three-time cancer survivor. Like I'm doing so much to, you know, it just feels really good. And I'm in school for my bachelor's. I got one more semester left, so it's just all the things I'm constantly going, going, going. So that was a beautiful day, magical day for me, and I am so grateful.

SPEAKER_03 59:17

Good, because that's that's what I'm saying because from your perspective to see how that is, I think it's great for us to hear because, like for me, you know, it was like a go, go, go, go, go moment, you know, and um like we're trying to be there for human beings, right? So my whole purpose for that day was to be there for y'all, um, and to be there for our students and to try to not only uplift but educate and um prep y'all for anything emotionally that you might go through or have gone through or whatever for the day. So to hear you say that, and I'll be honest, and you were so nonchalant that day. Oh, Missy was taking it. She was like, I'm just taking it in. Like, I I I came over touching. She's like, I'm just I'm just taking it in.

SPEAKER_05 59:59

She hit in a corner where I walked by her once and she looked at me, she said, What about me? I said, Ma'am, I can't believe you're so quiet.

SPEAKER_04 1:00:07

I even walked up to you and told you something too.

SPEAKER_03 1:00:12

I think that's a thing though, like when we have like like forced time off almost, you know, sometimes like you know, as as women, as mothers, as daughters, as workers, as a survivor, you know, we we it's hard for us to take the time for ourselves. So then when we have it and it's forced, it feels like that though, doesn't it? Like, what do we do with this? Like, we have so where did this time come from? Like, where did this come from? And so it's like, what do I what do I do with myself?

SPEAKER_06 1:00:43

You care for yourself. You care for yourself, yes, yes, absolutely. Miss Christina, um, what was your sticking out memory out of the event?

SPEAKER_04 1:00:57

Well,

You Didn’t Know You Needed This

SPEAKER_04 1:00:58

just to give everyone a little bit of a background, I was invited by one of the um models, Allie. Um, her son or her and my son go to school together. And so um, you know, I was really looking forward to see how she was doing, just kind of knowing her background. And I have to admit, for me, you know, I it was them coming out. It really was. I was very excited to see the models and then to hear that you did the fashion, that you actually created it. Um, that was really exciting because I've never actually attended anything like this before. Um, and I truly wanted to come and support, I think, not in a bad way, but just her changing so quickly was something that stood out and seeing her, her glide quickly through, maybe because my son was there. And I just I really want to make sure that at anything that I come to support her for, that I help her grow in that element as a young adult to achieve what it is she's trying to achieve, um, and never, you know, be in a way of like negative, but just growth, like just giving her this. Um and and then two, you I loved how you had them come back again and walk through. Um, and the one big piece, I'm not sure if she's on the call, but she had the big butterfly fanning Miss Tanya. That was like that, I thought was just what a grand thing to kind of just and like the it all came together, the design, the decor, and it's just something that's genuine to me. I had no idea that I even needed to be there for me to feel and and and receive the story for what I had been going through in my personal life that week. And I was like just taken back at the entire thing. So um, I would say that's probably what stood out for me the most was just kind of focusing on her because I was there to kind of see how she's been doing on her journey. Um, and I wanted to just see her flourish, but it was so wonderful to see that you even had other adults. I didn't know that there was going to be adults involved. You know, I thought this was um a youth thing because I didn't ask all the questions. So I was like, everybody can do this, you know. Anybody that really wants to get involved can really feel exactly what you're trying to share with the human to human compared to what we live in today, honestly. I'm a big, big um person on I think that connection is so uh deeply uh important because we're losing that uh connection human to human. Um I I was just the whole thing was really all of it for me. Um I would say too, like, even down to the music, it was such a good energy, just the energy in the room. Even when you came out, I'm like, she's comp she's she's worried, but she's got this. Like Oh girl, I think I would have panicked because like I said, I've managed things and you do you hold on to it. And to hear you even say, you know, it's part of being a leader and being able to delegate those things that you want to have that control over. So to see how you handled that so well, it gave me even more hope because I had to walk away from what I was doing. Um, and so I was like, we may not know exactly how it's gonna get there, but we're gonna do it, you know. And I felt that from your event because I was like, it's gonna be okay, no matter what, you know, thinking about my own personal things that I was going through. So I took a lot from the event, hence why I'm here on this call. And I've just I just met you that night, you know, I met your brother that night, um, Miss Madrid, or I don't know if it's Madrid's a first name. Monique, yes, Miss Madrid. Monique, yes, yes, Miss Madrid. And I just felt so surrounded by inspiration and creativity that I definitely want to gain more knowledge and become part of something that is going in the right direction.

SPEAKER_06 1:05:25

Go ahead and the community before it crossed. Real under my back. Go ahead.

SPEAKER_00 1:05:32

Oh no, I was just gonna say one last thing. Of course, we couldn't really hear what was going on because you know, we were doing our thing in the back. But I got a text from my pastor. My pastor was there, and she was like, Thank you so much for um inviting me. She was like, I did not know I needed this. So when she said what said that, that just made me think about what she said. And she was like, I didn't know I needed this. So I already knew that. Whatever was happening in the room, it was magical because she was texting me. She was texting me saying I didn't know how much I needed this. So thank you so much. She really enjoyed herself.

SPEAKER_03 1:06:15

I definitely that just filled my heart so much hearing you say that. So can I share something with can I can I share

The Meaning Behind FINC

SPEAKER_03 1:06:24

Adela? Am I allowed to share what the remote the the Lord revealed to us about think? Share whatever you want to share. Okay, well well, two things, two things real quick. So first thing was help me with the name. Which girl, Callie or Allie, did I have a moment with? Which one was it? The youngest one, the blonde flower the youngest one. The youngest one. The one with the flowery skirt.

SPEAKER_06 1:06:46

Allie, okay.

SPEAKER_03 1:06:46

Sorry, I'm so bad with names.

SPEAKER_06 1:06:48

ADHD so and then Callie, Allie confuses. Yes.

SPEAKER_03 1:06:50

Yeah, yeah. So Allie, uh she had a moment, right? And and and it was nothing she she could have done, right? She she it was it was all unfortunate. Again, we had students, we had No, then you're talking about Miss Callie.

SPEAKER_06 1:07:04

If it was the hair, it was Miss Callie. Miss Callie. She wore the black dress with the flowers. With the flowers. Yes, that's Miss Callie, not Ali. That's okay, Callie.

SPEAKER_03 1:07:16

Yes, Callie. Okay. So she um she's the younger one, right? No, she's no, she's the older one. She looks like she looks younger.

SPEAKER_06 1:07:25

Miss Allie acts like she's she's 20 years old. We're trying to keep her in her 13. So trying to keep her.

SPEAKER_03 1:07:32

Yeah, so we we had we had uh a moment, no part of her own, you know, um, too many people primping and prodding, right? Yep, yep, I was like, yeah. So when we get to so we get to the venue and everything, we have a moment, whatever, everybody has a moment, and and we're talking and we get through it, and we go sit down inside and I sit with her, right? And we are messing with this, this, this cow duck. Yeah, it's a cow duck, and we're having playing hacky sack with it, right? And just having a moment, just and it was very like grounding for whatever reason it really helped ground her and really helped ground me. It was a great little thing. And later in the evening, I had a moment, and she came up and she just tossed this duck at me, right? And and and you know, she's how old, 17? She's 15 or 16 now. I'm sorry, Callie, you're gonna kill me.

SPEAKER_06 1:08:22

I'm sorry, she's my mentee and she's gonna kill me. She's gonna be like, get my name and my separate.

SPEAKER_03 1:08:26

She so she she comes over, she hands me the duck. And in a moment that I was just not doing well, and it regrounded me. And it just I felt so seen in that moment. And it's a child doing it. I'm 44, you know. Uh, but she knew because I helped regulate her that she she could do something small that helped regulate me, and it was just I think that's beautiful. Um, but coming back to what Angie was saying about our pastor, um months ago, okay, months and months ago. Um I was on a call with Adela. We were just having our our our daily church, and and uh I was like, you know, I saw I I saw I I saw this video about people asking the Lord questions and he would just answer them because I asked directly. And I was like, let's let's try this. I have been trying to find an acronym for FINC, right? Since I've known Adela, okay? That's a long time and haven't found one. So I asked on the call with her.

SPEAKER_06 1:09:28

Because for me, it's project really quick. Because for me, it's project human. When I started this, I sketched out and he gave me literally, it says Project H. I have no idea what he means, it's just Project H. And so I took human and I was like, let's try human. And now 10 years later, she comes to me because we're listening to God.

SPEAKER_03 1:09:47

And so I say, I say, Lord, what does it stand for? I've been trying to think of an acronym forever. And within when I tell you seconds, I mean seconds, I go profound healing in Christ. And that was just the end.

SPEAKER_00 1:10:01

Wow.

SPEAKER_06 1:10:02

And so next year we have something coming with that too. But yeah, when you say that, and when you guys said that, when I tell you that my whole intention has been and always will be for human beings and every human that I ever interact with every human, every human, every human being that I ever interact with, to feel loved, seen, and heard for even just the moment of my conversation, because I 100% know what that's like not to be. Um, to be in a room full of humans, beings that you think love you, that you think are like that. You have this thought of what an idea of something is, and it's not the reality. And to have to recreate it, redefine it, redo that. That's what the whole documentary is about is reliving that and redefining it and restructuring and creating the community that God has created, not that I've decided should be or that I want it to be, but that God has designed, already done, and planned. And I am very bold in my faith now. I was not before when I started or any of that, but I am very much bolden and now because of the fruit, like I am the fruit of it, like I am. And to be able to stand here and stand on that solid ground and say it works, but the effort is on you. Right? The effort is on you on how well you want it to be and where you want it to be. And for us in this show, in this ending of this documentary, when I tell you this whole four years' journey of us talking about these conversations that we just had about the resilience and the triumphs and the trials and and and and and winning it are a beautiful conversation. But then I had the question of what does that actually then relate to or or or result to in fruition when we're talking about the community aspect of it? What

Turning A Runway Into A Film Set

SPEAKER_06 1:11:40

does that actually relate to that? How does like, yes, we're showing up in our production sets and do that? So I had three jobs, you guys, this time around. I had to produce a whole set, which those of you who didn't know were part of a film set. That's why we had photography signs and everything all over, because you were also part of a film set. So not only did we have to do a film set, we had to do an event that would be authentic and feel, not a curation of hey, I need action. I need this to be at this time and to be said this way, but an actual authentic human experience of what happens when you try and you fall and you succeed and you celebrate and you honor that, it doesn't matter how big it is. It matters you did it. It matters you show up and you did it. You know, like so that does that doesn't mean that there's not things you can improve on and do and all that. Believe me, you and me, I have my PDF file. It's probably like 700 pages of the wrongs on my end. However, all things considered, the fact that we were able to cultivate what you both just said was that feeling of you feeling like you didn't know you needed that experience, was what I wanted you to feel. I wanted you to know that I see you even though I don't know you. I feel you even though I can't, I don't, again, I don't know you. And I hear you because I really truly believe that that is the message of God. Like we may not feel him, we may not see him, we may not be able to be in that level of, but if we can create that moment, and like you said, that song, creating a moment of kindness, a moment of humanity. Um, we all have the capacity to do that. We just as Project Hume Human decided that that was worth our effort of focusing on for the rest of our lives now is creating moments of kindness and moments of humanity and moments that we can save lives with because it does not matter whether you're one year old or just the conception of you or the thought of you, or you are 150 years old, you're a human being who's literally navigating this life for the first time. And the fact that it is a running, it's a runway to your resilience for the till the end, like till wherever you really like it is forever gonna be a runway. How do you run it? How do you fly? How do you land? How do you how do you glide through it? And so um to see your humans do that and to go back to Ali really quick, she hated the sequence, but I was making her be a kid, I was making her be a kid. I was that was my whole point. Me and my me and mama talked.

SPEAKER_04 1:14:09

I got me and mama, but you also can see she's older, yes, she likes to be a little bit more older than she is, and so I I wasn't expecting the the attire that she was in. However, I 1000% understood it.

SPEAKER_06 1:14:24

Yep, 100%. She, I'm like, nah, girl, like this is like, and then to see, but the other part of that too is like I did a high, low, high waist on both of like, but I wanted to showcase that you also she's also both of them, and again, we've talked about this. Miss Carrie, who wore the other outfit that was like hers, just a longer version. Both of them are struggling with it with image issues and the way they're approaching and coming into this. Both of them, and that to me was like it didn't matter what you wore, like the idea that you're both struggling. I need you to shine. I'm gonna put you into something to shine and sparkle. I want like my idea wasn't just that like you're I need you to see yourself. And so, like when I see these photos and I see this, like when it reflects on their eyes, on their skins, on everything, and it's just like a most beautiful blend. And like you can see this moment of radiation, you're like, Yep, that's it. Yep, that's it. Like, because it's the it's the inner youth of you, like that's what we're focusing on, not the idea of what you should be, could be, would be expected. And Miss Sally's on a journey of expectations a lot for this next year and where she wants to go with her career, with her dreams, and there's gonna be a lot more of that, but she's still a child, no one, you know, and I don't mean that child, child, but she's still a kid, just like my kid who's 15 is still a kid, just like Miss Callie, who's 15 is still a kid, just like I'm 40 straight. So, yeah, just like I'm 40, who's a kid? And by the way, let's go back to that moment, you guys. Yes, no, absolutely. Can I, from your perspective? Because I really want to know this. I'm gonna tell you guys what happened on my end, but you were there, Miss Christina. So they said, We were 40 minutes early, okay, by the way, on our thing, like 25 minutes early from where we were supposed to be. And as my first show, I didn't know how to delegate that part yet because it was my first time of being like, take breaks, go break. I didn't know that. Now I know next time we'll take breaks and then I'll show up. That's not the point. So back end. So they said, and it's from what I hear, it's and it's Adela.

SPEAKER_05 1:16:16

Silence.

SPEAKER_04 1:16:20

I think he was he did actually say it three times. Um he he and then he just tried to kind of like, okay, you know, we're gonna get her out here. But listen, our people were early. It was early. It was early. I heard someone say it has to be that it was early.

SPEAKER_03 1:16:45

It was so early.

SPEAKER_06 1:16:46

It was so early. So listen, so then, so then they call me, right? And Will is because again, this is a film set now, so he's like, We're recording all. So this is why this is so great. Because like, this is like what they'll get to see.

SPEAKER_05 1:16:57

Like, is the right, right, Yolanda, right? So they're gonna be like, wait for it. So this is the scene.

SPEAKER_06 1:17:03

You guys get to preview the scene before the scene happens. So they say, Hey, here's Adella, right? That's gonna be in there. And then I'm gonna cut to Adela in the back, pinning either Miss Angie or somebody on my knees as half a head hair up, the other half getting straightened, pins in my mouth. No, moo, moo, moo, moo. We'll walk in and hey, they called your name.

SPEAKER_07 1:17:25

Huh?

SPEAKER_03 1:17:28

Yeah, and so we all pause. We literally all stop for a second because we couldn't believe because we've been waiting, okay? We've been waiting for probably almost an hour at this point already, maybe longer, to even start like getting dressed and stuff because of our timing, right? Because of the PDF. And so when he says that, now full, full, full force, we can get on the train and and choo-choo right through this for sure. We can get that. And we did do that, but it was just kind of like uh we didn't know we'd have to super train it real quick.

SPEAKER_06 1:17:56

Boy, was that fun. So you should just see me going, okay, and that's why Cat's like, hey guys, I'm here. Like, I'm like, yeah, because I had an outfit, yeah. You said you were gonna wear something differently. Oh, girl, it would. We had a plan, but then we also had an incident because we were supposed to have another designer walk a model, and again, this is where falls happen and things have to happen. So that didn't work out that way. So one of the models that we did have had to actually take my outfit. So we had to switch the lineup in the back end of how it was gonna go because we had an additional model.

SPEAKER_05 1:18:24

So all of that. And then they're like, Adela, they called your name, and I was like, Why? What do you mean? I don't even have a speech yet.

SPEAKER_06 1:18:38

And yeah, but we showed up, we did it, and then I forgot that we did the documentary. I was supposed to ask about like, did you guys enjoy the documentary? Did you like the story? Do you see? None of that happened. But this is the point of like, it's okay that it did not happen, right? It's like we did it though, and you guys didn't know the back end of the story of what happened, of the whole they called your name. I can't wait to see that scene. That scene better make it the primary scene in the documentary. But this is what we wanted to do is we all wanted to open this idea of a show that we're working on and doing and the like the fun behind it. And then you go into all the backstory of what led to that moment, all the years of work, all the stories, all the and you know it's crazy because again, Miss Monique, Miss Monique and Ian too. We have a couple minutes. Miss Monique and Ian, as you guys heard, he was our he was the muralist for that space. The idea when I said I wanted to make it so community, so connected was literally how do I get it from like people who built it. If I could have gotten the builders there, I would have gotten the builders there. Like I promise you, if I would have known the builders, we would have had the builders there. Who built this place? Who did like the like who thought of this? Like, who thought of this? Because it's important, you know. We it it's just so important at that level of contribution um to make something happen because it doesn't get built from ground. Like, we may get the building, but who built it and all of that. You guys may get the event, but who built the event? You so like there's always all of that back end that happens, right? So, yeah.

When Teens Teach Adults Resilience

SPEAKER_03 1:20:00

So little tidbit, because I didn't talk about this. Okay, so the young lady she's talking about, the youngest one, Ali. Thank you. She had a moment at the salon, uh, not like a bad moment or anything, um, where we were all talking about why we're there and what our resilience story is and stuff. And so she was talking about hers. And then she started talking about what she's done up to this point to fix some of the things for herself mentally and emotionally, and all these things, right? And you see all of these young adults who are new cosmetology students, right? So everybody's probably anywhere from 18 to 24, right?

SPEAKER_05 1:20:41

Yeah, 30.

SPEAKER_03 1:20:42

Yeah, they're they're all different ages. And everyone stops and looks at each other because of what she said. And I go, can you imagine how self-sufficient she's going to be as an adult because of this knowledge she already has? Do you understand the way she's going to mentally and emotionally regulate herself as an adult because she already understands as a young woman what that looks like in her life? And they're like, Yeah, I can't even think about what she already just said where I'm at right now in my life. And so that I think that's also a cool part. Like when we see the kids and they speak life into the adults, I think that's always such a beautiful thing. Yep. Um, because it is, again, it is community. And so um she, I don't know if she realizes she's touched some hearts when she said that. I don't know if she was looking around the room when she did, because I know she was speaking. Uh, but she definitely did. Uh, there's probably at least eight people that I saw really take in what she said. Um, so you could always share that if it's her if you'd like.

SPEAKER_06 1:21:53

Oh, she'll hear it now. It's it's out there now. Um, but I think again, like overall, all things considered, and I think consider all things, it was a perfect day and the way that God had planned it for us to to be there and to deliver that. And again, I hope that at the end of it all, they all of those who attended this time around, those who consider attending the next event we do or any any kind of participation with us, is that we really, when we tell you that we want to center it around the human-first ecosystem and that you are worth the effort, and you were so worth the effort of our effort of planning this and thinking through and and talking and getting said no to a thousand and one times, or all of the falling downs. It was so worth the effort to hear you guys also say that you felt loved, you felt seen. Um you felt like we gave you the reprieve that you needed from your everyday moment. Because again, everyday life is hard, and to pour into someone so that they can continue to move forward with their life and to create that bridge of potential community is the most important thing that we can do uh as human beings, I believe, because that's the way we stop all the bad things that are happening um and actually come together. But you know, what do I know? We've only been doing this for 10 years, and you know, we are not certified experts or nuisance in anything.

SPEAKER_03 1:23:08

We we have one of the best communities, I think, out of the many communities in our country. I think we have a lot of people who show up. Yep. And I think that room was a full um representation of what the community of Jacksonville can be when we all just come together and leave everything else at the door.

SPEAKER_06 1:23:30

Yep. It was to again to hear have so many humans show up and speak and be a part of that from models to past participants in our documentary to you know, it's just everywhere that we've grown and come to, it's been when I tell you I felt loved like for the first time, and that's not just like family or whatever, but like this human love that we all seek that we're all like trying to have. I felt that. And even though again, I had to unclog a toilet, you guys. And I'm happy about that, but that's not the point.

SPEAKER_05 1:24:02

Even through that, I felt love.

SPEAKER_06 1:24:04

Hey, but it wasn't it wasn't in the fancy potties, so it was not, it was not, it was not, it was not in the fancy potties, which by the way, you guys, the fancy potties were an awesome hit. We did that, that was part of that. No, that was part of that. Don't you come to me? You will never see a pot of party at our event ever. I come back from I come from the outhouses. The plastic is not an upgrade. We got the trailers. Listen, listen, we deliver experience.

SPEAKER_03 1:24:33

Everything was an experience, and I loved that.

SPEAKER_06 1:24:36

It really was, it really was from the food to the feeling to the walking through again, nothing working to everything coming together. Um, oh, last but not least, I completely why did I forget?

Gratitude, Next Steps, And Invitation

SPEAKER_06 1:24:45

Two more, three more things we gotta say. Thank you. Gary and Jeremy, awesome, awesome job doing and hosting the show and running it and talking and singing. Jeremy, you're a talent, okay? Gary, you're a hoot. I love you. Oh my gosh, we love you so much. Right? Um, oh yes, no, Miss Um, thank you, Miss Christina. You were impressed that we had the trailer bathrooms. Thank you. I was not giving up on that. Let me tell you something. I fought, I fought my team members, I fought. That was the first thing we bought. I was not giving up on that. They're like, no, I will invest in that. There was no donation on that, you guys. There was no sponsorships on that. That was a think investment into your making sure your butts were nice and nice in that with AC, might I add. With a C, might I add. Now, again, I'm not saying that the rain did not put a little damper in potentially the use of it. That's okay, but that's not the point. That's not the point. We had them. Yes. No, we were not. We were not settling for less. Like I'm telling you, that is never happening. Um, if there's nothing else I have, I may not have any decoration, but we will have a fancy bathroom. Um we sure will. No, it was, like I said, it was an amazing experience. So the other two, the other person we have to give a shout-out to, Office Depot off of Ramona Boulevard, okay? Oh, yes, Terry. Terry, let me tell you something, okay? This is a shout out and a shout down to Jack's Chambers, okay? I did a presentation at 904 in front of a room full of like 60 people for what we were doing, okay? And this is businesses, locals, or whatever. Everybody is listen, everybody to each his own, everybody to each his own. Out of that room, okay, outside of the Molly person and a couple other people that have been helping me, like in that, I'm saying out of the businesses to step up, to show up and really deliver. Terry, that moment came up and says, We got you, we do this. And your programs, your little handouts, all the stuff that was so beautifully done was Terry. And he himself put an effort to make that happen. Okay. Your signs outside, the bathroom signs. He gave me big signs. I was so proud of my parking signs, you guys. So proud of them. And just, but those things matter. The fact, and then then he took the initiative to be like, I did this this way, and then I put your red color in there because we see the red in there. Like the way we took care of you, he took care of us. And I just have to give him a shout out. Um so if you ever need anything, you need to go see them. If it's a drive, it's worth the drive, worth the effort. 100%. Oh, just all of it. And then Aspendos, thank you for hooking us up for all those gift cards. If you have not had some good food, you need to go take that gift card, tell them Fink sent you. Have some good food, man. Also, our ice cream lady. Ice cream is tasty creamery. Christian, okay, boom, hookups on that. Thank you for so much for it. She's so fun. She is so much fun. Okay, so much fun. Sebastian, thank you for the wines um for all of that. Red Lou, uh, Red Lou Lounge, thank you for the certificate. Club Pilates, thank you for what you did with us on that too. Gracie um Barra uh Jiu-Jitsu Fleming Island. If you need that, like boom, boom, boom, you need to check them out. Um, boom, boom, boom, last seconds, last seconds. I'm looking for jewelry guy. Um, yes. Uh uh Hemingway Jewelry, thank you so much for donating that peace to us. We were able to, they got that too. Um, and Jennifer to the chair, Claire to the painting, and so many others that if I forgot to mention you, I apologize. But thank you guys so much, so much, so much. Again, we have blog posts, we have podcasts, we have so many different ways and menus that we're gonna be coming, and we'd love to have you on and share your experiences. Share your story. Christina, come on the podcast, share your story, experience, all of that, how you were an event designer, how you got to hear, what your thoughts are, because you never know who might hear, who might need what you needed by showing up to hear us speak to. So, just an FYI, that is an opportunity. Ms. Angie, we got to get you on the podcast because they need to hear your story. So you got the link to book that, okay? You book that as soon as you can. Anyway, you guys, if there's anyone else that wants to leave anything else, any last message, because we are right past eight o'clock, and I thank you guys so much. I don't want to keep you longer because we could talk forever about this, how awesome it is. Last words to you.

SPEAKER_03 1:28:42

We just love you guys. We love all of you guys. We love Jacksonville, we love our community, and uh, we hope to see you again real soon.

SPEAKER_06 1:28:52

Awesome. Awesome, awesome. Well, again, thank you guys so much. Thank you for supporting. If you'd like to donate, if you'd like to subscribe, if you'd like to sponsor, um, be part of our community member, become become a community partner with us. We have so many educational things coming up next year, so many opportunities for you to partner up with us to give this experience. We'd love to have you. If you'd like to volunteer, we are already starting to look for board members because we are growing quite exponentially. And now we need to take on Adela's delegating and Adela's trusting. So here we go. Come on on board, Adela's delegating. So I need to delegate, I need to win, and we'd love to have you be a part of it. Help the vision grow. We'd love to have your skills in there, your time. We know that it is a lot and it is a commitment. But when you're able to be part of that experience and contribute to that effort, to that and share that, it is infectious. Okay. It is so infectious and it makes you want to infect the whole world with how awesome everything is. And that's how I feel. I just want to infect the whole world, whole world with awesomeness. Um, so the last but not least, come join us on November 19th. Uh, I want to make sure it's November 19th, but I will, yes, November 19th is our last MCC of the year. I believe it's our holiday edition. Jen will be sending out emails, but join us. Join us as our last bit of community um effort and and connection before the holidays. So that way come January we could come together and really kick off the year next year and take like, take the take this Jacksonville, Northeast Florida, and Florida by the storms because we will be debuting the documentary. We will be in film festivals, we will be moving across the world and countries. As our podcast is, we're at almost 1700 downloads, you guys. In the last two weeks, it has downloaded over 500, over 300 downloads. I'm thinking 500 because I want to be ahead, but we're at 300 over downloads in just two weeks because you believe in this mission and you believe in the voices that we're sharing. So you'll be able to hear this on our podcast too. So listen, subscribe, do all the good things. Until next time, all the love, all the joy to you from Project Human and every other community member. Remember that you're not alone. Humans are here for you. You just have to be willing to know that you are worth the effort and putting the effort to. Until next time. Adios, nanny. Bye.